Trading community (don't read this)
I've been writing a draft on the main blog--hopefully it gets finished by the week's end. I completely lost all momentum as a blogger a few months back and it's so difficult to pick up the pieces. I've decided to write a little more "selfishly" and go back to letting myself just write my memoirs and vent emotionally. No need to aim for mainstream posts with wider reach anymore. The dream of monetizing my blog or having 20-30 posts a year and becoming the best trading blog ever--those are all dead. Fuck it.
I've been thinking about my spot in the trading community--or lack thereof. Whenever I decide to look at daytrader community (twitter, reddit, discord, whatever), I find myself increasingly feeling like Grandpa Simpson.
Click the "For You" tab by accident. Some cocksucker is making $500,000 in a day shorting a 0.5m float stock and he's probably the most terminally online piece of shit you've ever seen. He has 96 replies--always the same people--and it's also the most terminally online insider daytrading shit ever. I don't want to see that shit anymore. Different flavor of WSB culture--which I had always despised. I don't want to appeal to that audience or anyone who's even adjacent to it. I want to live and interact with normal people who don't even know this shit exists.
I guess it was always kinda like this but now I just don't want any part of it. Weird and fucking scary to me. Maybe that's me getting older. So I don't know--that creates a feeling of disconnect to me. I'm looking outside my window in disgust and I want to shutter the blinds. The very people who read my blog--well, I don't really want to write to a decent chunk of them anymore. The most normal people are probably too quiet (for their good) rather than being terminally online weirdos. Even normal, humble traders who aren't like this but re-post it--yeah, you know who you are--just stop, please.
That's just how I feel. That's a big reason (not the only one, but a big one) why writing has been a slog, my twitter account has been completely quiet, and I don't ever want to answer my e-mails on time. I don't want to be a part of this and I don't see a place for myself.
I don't if this is how I really feel or just a fleeting feeling, BTW.