ADHD mindset
I've been trading too much lately and I know the symptoms 100% at this point. It's when I tell myself I want to leave the screen and not check symbols anymore, maybe go to the gym or clean up the home. Then 5 minutes later after a bathroom break, I'm right there opening my platform again. I can't quit.
It's this part of me that doesn't go away.
I try to fight it a bit. I don't want to let that short-term monkey gain too much control. I've lost too much trust in him. I want the greatest context to pull me into the market and then let that guy do his thing on that particular day and that particular trade--no freelancing out of that.
Except lately. I've been regressing a bit into my old self. I'm making money so I haven't been disgusted enough to quit for a longer time period. I keep expecting something bad to happen.
There's a lot of grinding and fighting for price type of trading. The best parts of 2024 was just going into a stock cold and being like that's top, mother fucker! and riding it for a six figure gain with zero drawdown. There hasn't been a lot of that lately. Harder patterns on extended stocks. Large caps like PLTR/HOOD/CRWV not quite having that monster gap up no-brainer move where you can load up 0dte's for 5-10x gains. My best gains have been on CRCL (ugh) and BMNR--which I mostly got lucky on, I think. I guess that's fine.
Then I just want to go away until the next big one. But I find myself sticking around to grind a little and it's kind of working? I don't really want to be a full time trader yet here I am, kinda trading like one. I'm not sure I have any larger point, I'm just hyper aware of what's going on right now.